"Dig if u will the picture
Of u and I engaged in a kiss
The sweat of your body covers me
Can u my darling
Can u picture this?

Dream if u can a courtyard
An ocean of violets in bloom
Animals strike curious poses
They feel the heat
The heat between me and u"

Prince/When Doves Cry

Cabin Fever

Phil shifted uncomfortably in his seat. Something was wrong, very wrong but he didn't know what it was. The dream of the night before still held his attention, but now something more had been added. In this place, this theater where the exams were given the outside world was blocked so that the only intrusion would be from the testers if they so desired. No one outside could read the thoughts of anyone inside and vice-versa. He struggled to get a handle on just what it was he was sensing, but he was thrown off by their next question.

Tell us about the cabin.

The cabin! How can he explain that to them?

"For a week Jan and I stayed in a very isolated cabin in Montana. It belonged to a friend of mine who sensed we needed a bit of time alone away from work and such. We packed our things and I flew us there. We had to hike up quite a ways to get to it but when we saw it we were both in awe. It was just what you would think of when you think of a log cabin. Quaint, small, rustic and very isolated. Just a few yards from the front door was a lake with a waterfall. We went inside and found the place to be immaculate. A fireplace was all ready to be started and the fridge was stocked. This was going to be our special time."

Up until this point you had never consummated your relationship, is that correct?

"Yes, that is true. And frankly I am not sure why. We were such good friends that I think we were afraid of losing the friendship if we became lovers. I knew without a doubt that we wanted each other desparately, but one of us always hung back. This time though I was determined to have her. I wanted nothing more than to please her, I wanted to put joy onto her face." He paused to reminicise. "It was the middle of summer and it was really sweltering hot. The cabin had ceiling fans but that was it. The nights were chilly though which was nice. We would light the fireplace at night, make hot chocolate and sit by it. You would think we would have spoken every word possible to each other having gone through what we went through together. But we always found more to talk about. There was always more to learn about each other. So anyway, it was the second day we were there and it was almost unbearably hot. I was sitting in a pair of shorts in the kitchen with my feet up on the table and she was going to go for a swim. She came out of the bedroom in this gorgeous bikini. I mean I couldn't take my eyes off of her. She was more beautiful than anything I had ever seen before in my life. Her hair had come back all wavy and thick, and it hung loose over her shoulders. She had these hair pins in her mouth and was putting her hair up, pretty much ignoring me. Then she caught me staring at her and she blushed. It was adorable. So she finally got most of her hair up but some of it still hung down around her face. I asked her if she needed help and she nodded yes, so I came over to her and took the last hair pin out from between her teeth. I gathered up the spare strands and went behind her to pin it all up when I was confronted with the back of her lovely bare neck. I had an unbelieveable desire to kiss her there. So I did. It was all too much, the way she looked, the person she was, the isolation and freedom to do and be whatever and whoever we wished for those few days. I pressed my lips there gently, just the barest whisper of a kiss and then I waited. As well as I knew Jan I didn't know how she would react. This was an area that we only barely explored that first night in Aspen. I heard a low groan come from her and she stood perfectly still. I had my hands on her shoulders, and then I slid them down her arms slowly. Again, she didn't move, didn't pull away. I could just see her face reflected in the glass on the cabinet, her eyes were closed and her lips were pursed. I tilted my head to the side and placed another kiss on the side of her neck trailing my lips up to her ear. I remember saying, "I love you. Let me show you how much." and then hearing her reply of "Yes, oh yes." gave me all the answer I needed. I worked slow, painfully slow for me anyway. It was all I could do to hold myself back. I pushed the straps down off her shoulders and unhooked the back of her top. It slid off of her to the floor. She leaned her head back against my shoulder. I cupped her breasts in my hands and kneaded them gently. I was a little worried about doing this because I was afraid I would find another lump but if I didn't she would know I was purposely avoiding them. Besides, I really wanted to." He grinned, thinking back to that moment. "She arched herself back against me, pressing into me. My body was screaming at me to hurry up already but my heart kept telling me to take it slow. I took her chin in my hand and turned her face sideways so that I could kiss her. She spun herself around and the next thing I know "I" am the one being ravaged! I think I started laughing, and so did she. It was wonderful. And it got better. I started to take off my shorts but she beat me to it. She was on her knees in front of me, tenderly taking me in her hands.

Part 15